emerge!!!!!!!!!!

its another 2hrs or so till i leave to sunway convention centre. am very excited. thrilled!!!! omg!!! beyond words now my heart. havent pack finish my stuffs yet actually like toiletries and stuff. still thinking wanna bring along my com or not. its gonna be heavy and a lil annoying plus i wont be able to use except for tomorrow morning in church cuz there's wifi there. hmmm...still debating tho.

u know wads scary? when God answer's prayer u make. especially those u pray once and u get the results the next day. scary tu but its a good one. once again i got assurance from God imma gonna rise up and be a leader. a good one i hope =) so many things have opened up to me since i started serving. from the point lee choo asked me if im ready. its the simplest question being yes or no but it took me 2 weeks to answer her. now i know the simplest things are the hardest ones and the hardest the simplest. and i know no matter wad i do, how far i might fall behind or how wrong the things i do, i've got God behind me to raise me up [and i hear josh groban next to me singing you raise me up~~ so i can stand on mountain...~~] haha. but all i can say its been a revelation the past 3 months. and i owe it all to this 3 months of cell group and fasting season. its really help me to grow lots tho i dont realise until now. chup chup...enuff on it. will share full details when im asked to share a testi. haha!!

this is gonna be my last post for the next 72hrs or so i guess and im enjoying my teh o ais limau as i blog with my fried rice. dang i was super hungry 30mins ago and now im dead full with half the rice left. sigh. tall man with tiny tummy. geez...i wanna complain something tho. why sabah and sarawak i think, dont have teh o ais limau? geez...then wad am i gonna drink when im back!!!!???? someone bring this simple drink over!!!!

gebni ktean rof gdetran

not gonna be able to online the next 3 days or so i guess cuz will be heading to kee wee's place to sleep due to the wee hours of serving after each night during the conference. promise to post loadsa news and pics from the conference once im fully recuperated from it. haha.

emerge is like....today? yeah!!! looking forward to it and counting down as each hour passes by now. yea yea. lotsa things gonna happen and expecting much too from it since its a national scale event so hopefully its gonna be super impacting. anyway, been a lil bengang with po hin today. well, doreen had the same prob too she told me. he's like super persistent in getting the attendance and asking us to get ppl to come. *news flash : we're tarcians and we're having exams after emerge* so i was thinking, if they come, they must be super genius students who is confirm scoring 4 flat or too much time to spare after a long preparation. if not, the ppl dont wanna study at all and will use every opportunity to not study. sadly, such 2 categories of ppl dont exist. im just hoping he will realise that this is not a race to see which cell can bring more new friends or who can expand the cell the largest. we asked, we invited, they just dont come. wad can we do?? sigh, sometimes i just dont get him and his mindset and No, im not against him. just different slightly. anyway enuff...

erin guessed the coded msg correctly after 3 days arr? sigh , so now i owe her dinner. haha. its kinda weird tho. im happy someone understood that line but am sad cuz i need to buy her dinner. LOL. anyway, a promise is a promise and one musnt be made if u wanna break it. learn that ppl!!!!! so now i must guess all her coded ones to get the free baskin robbins. im coming back erin!!!!

ran down...

ok i semaking bengang with my com now. 2nd time ady when im blogging and the internet browser just collapse. as in like hang or connection lost or just some dumb reason. semakin dont wanna blog now. sigh...its okie...kelvin shall persevere thru the ordeal. i need to learn to have patience anyway so i think this would be a good way to learn. haha. its kinda a long day today with the 2nd day of telematch. as forecasted earlier by me this week, west sapu as many as they could in the last 2 events. thankfully south did manage to grab 2 golds to even up things a bit. for now im lost in the tally but if not wrong, we're behnd west by number of silvers. sucks eh? i know those west ppl who are reading this is damn happy to know it. argh!!! go SOUTH!!! anyway its okay to lose. turn to ur neighbour and tell them its okay to lose. ( eek, i feel like i semakin sound like those ppl in church with all this lines. good or bad i dont know. hehe.

feel like having a slurpee now suddenly. for those ppl who dont know wad is a slurpee i suggest u go to 7-11 and have a look around. make sure u open ur eyes BIG BIG ya and when u found it pls bang the wall. have a nice day. haha!!! but sadly im broke now. i w withdrew 50 yesterday afternoon and 24hrs later im down to rm2.30 i think. hmm...my spending abilities have surpassed my wildest imagination. haha. this is a BAD OMEN!!! still...im so tempted to walk to 7-11 and buy 1 large now. how??!!

so happy harry won the go cart race today. well...practically cuz i dont want west to win . but then he is my friend so we must support each other as he has supported me when i ran so i should be returning the favor. anyhow i just want him to win la. and i end up owing him a cup of yoyo now. haha. cocme claim from me when back in kk la =P. also i need to bring him go go-karting again and bang kao his car. ill try not to break the cars in the process i promise =)

rain dow, all around the world is singing, rain down.....gosh i love that song by delirious. so so nice. so right here i wanna thank KRIZELDA for sending me the song. thank u so much!!!! muaks muaks...haha. and sorry arr if u label me as guy who look for u for songs only. its a bad title but ill strive to improve it. thanks fu once again. ive lost count how many songs ive taken from u anyway. still thinking now wanna buy the CCC new album or hillsong. hillsong is like i get bored after 2-3 weeks while CCC is something different for me but i dont like all their songs. i guess nothing is perfect eh ? still i think i favour CCC a lil more now. 55-45%

heres wad im planning the coming 4 weeks or so
-emerge next week (tuesday - thursday)
-someone special's birthday (anonymous)
-exams over the course of 2 weeks or so (8-22 sept)
-penang with jason to doreen's place (22-24)
-flying back to kk on the 25th!!!!

in need of a ...

if theres a breakthru in life i need right now is financial. but i know why im not getting one from God. since im not giving sacrificially or out of poorness that state but giving like it does not mean anything to me so it doesnt make up to God. ok..lesson learnt and will improve on it now. kinda tired now from a longggg day today. actually not long considering i slept half the day waking up at 1pm and head on to church. so 12 hrs on the bed and 12 in church. not bad horr? haha. it was a great service tonight and too bad if u didnt go. *turn to ur neighbour and say uh-oh*

listening to this new song i just got from ah fu (kriz). some mandarin song by some guy feat jolin. nice tune it has so if ya'll wanna hear it gimme a nudge on it. thinking now if i should study or go to bed. im gonna struggle to get up anyway in the morning no matter wad time i sleep so feel like i should study a bit now. gonna be a ker-a-zi week next week with emerge happen11ing. yes ppl, EMERGE IS NEXT WEEK!!! yeah baby!!! looking forward to it soooooo much!!! now the challenge is to invit friends. who to invite ler? its like all my tarcian dudes is studying like mad so doubt they wanna go now. :( sigh...God i need help arr!!!!

off to bed now. haha. forget bout studying la. super duper lazy now. plus i need to buy erin breakky in da morning. i just hope the egg tart shop is open at 9am. if no die la me now. hahaha.

P.S : no one still can guess correctly the coded msg arr? its okie...save me money for a dinner. haha!!!! closing date for a final answer is now changed to next week sunday 12midnight!!!! happy cracking ppl =)

egg tarts!!!

my current song of the day/week is Jojo's new single - too little too late. 3 reasons why u need to check it out:
-its a new song from her
-she's got good vocals. G-O-O-D i mean
-she is so so hot in that scene on the car. haha. i like girls in that way

ok ok ok..enuff jojo for a day. ill go on ranting bout how pretty she is if i dont stop now. lately it has been raining so kinda nice for me. just sit down chill and enjoy the rain. something i love doing a lot. but the thing i hate bout kl rain is that it feels different than the ones in kk. now i may sound weird but wait till u stand or walk under the rain and enjoy the downpour from the sky. theres a huge diff. one is that the drops in kl is bigger and more sharp in sense of feeling when it drops on u. the ones in kk is vice versa. smaller ir diameter and softer feel. now im not being biassed but thats wad i feel. plus...im NOT INSANE talking bout feeling the rain drops. geez...i just the rain ok?

ooohhh i hag eggie tarts today!! gosh i miss em. yes im an egg tart fanatic. i love pandan tarts mostly cuz it smells better and taste better. portuguese egg tarts are not bad due to the softness of the egg but crunchy skin. now hong kong egg tarts are different a bit. its soft but a lil rubbery on the egg and buscuit like on the brown part / skin . LOL . dont u ppl analyze the things u eat? hahaha



yes ladies and gentleman, that is a picture of an egg tart i took while indulging in one today. thats a mini portuguese egg tart if ur wondering or tart blind. haha. cool i like this word - "tart blind". now i feel like eating one!!!! where to buy arr at 11.05pm? hmmmmm

today was a total waste of time in college. the only good point from it was me studying in library on chapter 2 of materials and a lil maths. yes ppl, kelvin does study in college but not home. =) we (me, yean jie @ shorty and siang @ ah bui) were late 30mins or so for the lecture at 11 ( we arrived 11.30++ ) due to the over enjoyment of nasi lemak and drinks in the coffee shop. yes i can only blame myself. haha. enter lecture also no use, i dont understand what she was teaching upfront and i couldnt see so screw it. then came tutorial for maths. this one i very bengang. altho i wasnt looking forward to enter class yet i dragged my feet there on time. manatau.....lecturer didnt come after 30mins or so waiting. we found out he was having a check up and didnt inform anyone. celaka!!!! and that was the end of my class. amazing friday eh i had today? geez...even i as a very lazy person also will inform ppl im not coming or too lazy to go. this fella...he more geng than me. =="

eeekk...im missing her now...heaps in fact. sigh...wishing she is online right now so i could chat with her while the night drifts away and romancing under the moonlight while the jazz music plays somewhere downtown in france. ooppss...i ter-drift myself into a movie scene. gomen gomen. but i like the jazz idea and somewhere downtown in france. maybe i got talent in script writing? hmm...who knows

thinking back of the past, i used to keep my blog hidden on just to some ppl due to shy-ness and sorts. blah blah blah...just believe me on this =) but i think its time to step up to let ppl read whats in my head now. just the down thing is i have an ANNOYING BROTHER NAMELY JUSTIN ONG who floods my msn and comments with his "pearls of wisdom". shove it bro...hahah!!!! so guys...from now onwards i hope u guys enjoy reading my blog. im not scared to write anything i feel like anymore and if u got a prob, u know where to find me =) [ ooo celaka, wound bleeding now due to itchy fingers of peeling the skin earlier. arghhhhh ]

ok here's some prayer item u guys need to keep in mind before going to bed. it only takes up to 30sec tops if u bersemangat wanna pray bout it. haha!!!
-> justin is dying day by day until his results are out. its okie...u wont die so early. i still wanna attend ur wedding and i wanna plan it out for u. hehe
-> erin for preaching challenge this sat ( in another 12hrs or so from now ). dont matter she's west or north or whatever, im rooting for u!!! if u win i dont need to buy u and egg tart right? hehehe
-> kelvin is still tensing over his exams. need more determintation and to persevere in studying. also for a open/receptive heart during emerge!!
-> kelvin to get more egg tarts and ice cream. i wan magnum de ah. if not i wan any ice cream that is vanilla inside and choc coated. preferably with peanuts on it. merci!!!!

argh!!!

i actually wrote a damn long blog just now but dono for wad bloody reason its not uploaded and the whole thing is gone and i couldnt save a bloody word of it so screw it!!! yes im in a tantrum now. its not that HARD to tell right? geez...

u know wad erin, what u told me was working well till bout 1 hr ago. its driving me nuts now not being able to communicate. it really SUCKS!!! gosh. i just wanna talk or something but no, im not supposed to do that for the better of tomorrow. bah srew it now i say. ive got a coded msg this time. I.R.L.H.B.I.K.M.I .guess it and the person who gets it right will get a free dinner from me of any choice. offers valid till 4 weeks from now. happy cracking ur heads ppl =). plus listening to the song "hero" from enrique iglesias is NOT helping. geez, i really hate my playlist now. so loaded with love songs. i need anti love now. XD ahhahha. bah im off to bed and get my tummy ready for a hearty meal in the morning. im damn hungry now btw. =)

shout out

1 thing i like bout a church is knowing ppl older than u. they have so many experience (or at least more than u) in life that if u have a prob, they'll help ya to talk it out or work it out with u. gosh i need to know more ppl to help me out then =P. i wanna give a shout out to Erin, thanks for talking me thru it this afternoon and giving me some pointers in that kinda situation. although u were pms-ing u still helped me out so i owe ya big time!! another shout out to ma bro for being an ignorant person but helping me in booking my ticket and keeping my secret(s) safe. well if u dont ur gonna die neway =) . and 1 last shout out to my w20 cell members - martin, doreen, lee choo, po hin, jason. u know who u guys are. kep it real man and God bless! feeling the positive vibes flowing thru me now after a long afternoon doing something good despite skipping 2 lectures and 1 tutorial *kelvin whistles and backtracks towards the door and run away* . but heck, if u asked me i think it was worth it. i wasted 3hrs to set my brain waves straight rather than keeping myself lost the next 2-3 weeks or more to come. anyway, emerge is NEXT WEEK!!!! gosh i didnt realise its so near!!! which leaves me till tuesday next week to prepare for 1 subject in the exams. 2 preferably. hmm...i need to conjure some magic here. *kelvin calling God, got help?*

heres how my timetable looks like. not that scary actually but i hate the "hectic period" in between.

Friday (8/9/06) - Mathematics 3
Thursday (14/9/06) - Applied Engineering Science
Saturday (16/9/06) - Materials Engineering
Monday (18/9/06) - C++ Programming
Tuesday (19/9/06) - Industrial Manufacturing & Automation
Friday (22/9/06) - Manufacturing Processes

ok....now i look again its killing me. =( *God, u got hear my prayer or not now?* the saturday till tuesday is gonna kill me 100%. plus im planning to go karaoke on the 12th with doreen they all. WOOT!!! kelvin is so so screwed.

Dear readers, the author of this blog urges you to support him in prayer. If possible, in chicken soup, birds nest, brain massage and money ( to buy ice-cream to make him happy ). Thank you

ouch!!!

waking today was the 1st thing on my mind as i slept last night. actually something else but nvm bout it. i guess it really went as bad as i pictured. slept early to rest but with the pain i guess i gave up at 3am and from then onwards culdnt sleep properly. sucks really but what to do? all for a gold medal..haha. jus gotta get some rest now and buck up i suppose from my physical conditions. the amazing today was when i woke up, i had no mood for games. although i tried out football manager but it wasnt much fun actually. just got bored or should i say no mood for anything. dont know what caused it actually. but 1 things for sure, its a GOOD THING!!! AMEN!! right now thinking of skipping class now. wanna stay home and get another day of rest. but i think its more of i dun wanna see the guys. just feel like anti them now. after all, they're being a bad influence to me atm so i guess i gotta ditch them. moving on.....

guess compared to my last post i feel so much calmed now talking to son, mel and cheryl. and remembering what doreen told me all this while, guess i gave up on myself too fast. plus im not determined enuff in something i do. guess i found another flaw in myself. good thing too. lets see what im bad at:
- always steal 5 mins or more when waking up earlier than 9am
- demam 5 minit panas 3 minit - quoted by alvin on me...dunno meaning ask me
- im TOOOOO THIN!!!!
- have 0 talent except in talking crap
- easily get frustrated at things
- lazy to study - who doesnt?
- say things but never do it - most of the time actually =(
- don clean my room especially my bed...hahaha!!!
- refuse to do assignment but always tell ppl to do
- always disturb ppl with smsing them
- injury-prone in all kinds of sport
- uses the motto "all play and no work makes kelvin the happiest guy"
- argues with parents if tak suka 1 bit in the conversation
- cannot take care of property properly
- very shy when talk to ppl older than me or girls especially

actually still got geh but if i list down some more i scare i terjun down my condo tonight. sigh....its a sad sad life kelvin....hahaha

something better not read

i find it that i love to blog when im really frustrating or just having those mood sessions again. its not like i want to but its due to over thinking and ppl's reaction/response. i really hate it, i mean REALLY hate it when i text ppl and they dont reply. i understand if no credit cuz i would end up calling but when got credit and they dont? im just *wow, u did that to me arr? nice* that kinda reaction. sounds harmless but deep inside, !@#@$#%$^&* on most ppl. MOST PPL ok? -ok sensitive issue now- really makes me indescribable deep inside when she don reply me. im just harr? don worry....still tahan-ning. just dunno till when only can survive. no wonder my pimples all appearing again. sigh. talking bout this, i hate man. i really hate man. not cuz im anto guy but due to the emotional part of a man. man can get so so so jealous over small things. lemme put a scenario, if A takes B's camera and snaps pics with C and ignores all about A except to ask: "how to change the mode ar?" then turn back to C and snap more. and if A sits there and see all this, u think A can tahan or not? *note: B is girl and C is guy =)* generally guys will be jealous but some man, some VERY DAMN RARE guys, can tahan. i think evan of all guys will also cannot tahan. hmmm. basket!!!! u guys dont have to fit it who is who and what is what. we just play anonymous here. im outta energy to frust anymore. all i know now is i wanna say many things but i can simply say it but it has to take its place at the right time. like su min said, 70% in the mind but only 30% in the action. i guess i gotta spend my 30% wisely. but till then, it is bloody consuming me inside. tomorrow afternoon need run for telematch. im thinking of calling theen kin or ibnu or po hin and say, "hey, im not ok now mentally so im not gonna run today. thanks and good luck in finding a replacement. u guys are the best =)" i wonder what will happen to me then? oh well. its just !@!#$@#%$^%&^*&(*)(_()(*&*^&^% right now and im off to bed. screw the post. ill edit it later

what the world needs

its definitely not a hero but more of Jesus. haha!! not really funny come to think of it but just u know....anyway kinda bored here so i decided to blog a lil. been a few days or almost a week since i posted something so better get that gear running. but come to think of it deeper, theres things i cant mention here anymore. it used to be my refuge to blabber it all out but now, its kinda public to ppl so i cant fully unleash it all here. now i understand why girls rather keep a diary book under they;re pillow. much much safer. haha!!! but here goes today's blog issue.

hasnt been really appealing to me today. times ticking down till exams arrive and im not prepared as usual. still stuck with LOA atm and its kinda hard to get my butt off it. its like a make or break situation now. and as i think of it again it really really depressing and frustrating. just to know the fact u dont wanna cheat in exam but lazy to study yet wanna score well doesnt sound appealing AT ALL!!! its a sure fail combination and seems like im taking it unless a lightning strike me. im not being literal now but metaphorically i dont understand. gosh!! i feel like i have the urge to study now but i know and i know if i do that. even if i manageto pull it off, i will be sleepy in the morning for lab and maths. that is NOT GOOD AT ALL. so its kinda a lose lose situation for me now and i cant decide which way to die. seems im just not in a good mood now anyway. it must be either the haze is polluting my mind or im just having my "men's pms" session. i cant even put a LOL at the back cuz it doesnt sound funny at all. sigh.

guess i really shouldnt have blogged tonight. sounds so __________ . u fill it up for me. i cant think any further for now. anyway nite world.