new blog rocks

hmm....i like this new blog by blogspot. more options and much more interesting compared with its predecessor. a lil tired now and prolly i should sleep knowing i need to wake up at 6am to go to church tomorrow. but then i cant nor i should even think of complaining right? its all part of serving - sacrifice and going out of your (in this case my own) comfort zone. things in ministry's going pretty well week after week. talked to su min bout it and seems like theres a bigger picture behind not promoting. it places a lil relieve into my mind to hear it from his mouth - like a sign of confirmation on what im doing and the direction im heading towards. like lee choo says it all the time - we grow from glory to glory, strength to strength. =)
right now jus worried that im gonna be bored to death tomorrow afternoon waiting till 6pm. also if i get to shower and will i smell tomorrow? yikes!!! hahhahaa

got this cool song from cheryl this afternoon. its by parachute band titled complete. a christian song so i recommend u guys to listen to it. =)

xmas is like 31 days away? haha. got that countdown from shereen's msn. so many things happening in dec. theres thanksgiving night, more invited speakers, XMAS of course, several buddies birthday and when u know it, its new year. 2007 looks full of promise tho so im truly looking forward to it. ok ok...think ive gone too far into the future. right now, dr. robb thompson's conference and english final is the only 2 things that worry. well, that 1 more minor one happening after the conference. no details on that ... hehe.

off to snooze land now. good nite

bucking up!

man im still feeling head-heavy, dizzy a lil, tired and so much more. its like a mixture of hangover and migrain and fatigue. i need lotsa lotsa rest. broke my personal record of staying in cyber till wad time this morning. stayed there till 7.10am and reached home bout 7.30. showered follower by sleep and the world passed me by without knowing wad had happened. amazingly could wake up and go english class altho i kinda regretted that decision a lil since the lecturer isnt in a good mood - AGAIN. dont know wad happened to her till keep fretting over small things and being sooooo strict bout college regulations. ish!!! well, i cant complain bout everything can i? jus gotta maintain this positive attitude im curbing and move on.

bashed up ken badly last night at his place. literally that is. both him and his apartment. celebrated his bday and amazingly we managed to prank him badly and still have a good cake to eat. all under a tight budget of rm180. got him a cake from secret recipe for him to eat, a butter cake to whack him, 4 cans of beer to get him drunk - which he did and puked badly, cream spray to whip his pants and "deeper" and more food to eat. and along the process of "tapao-ing" him, we kinda destroyed his place and end up washing the floors, walls and everything else. 10mins of fun for an hours work of cleaning. kinda worth it tho. haha. imagine, 18ppl bullying 1 lil fella. hahahha!!!

p.s : never drink soft drinks instantly in 1 go. it'll make u wanna puke or some bubbling feeling in ur stomach which isnt good at all. i had 7 cups running and boy that wasnt fun.

rev rob thompson is this weekend until next week tuesday so the that 4 days is gonna be hectic,amazing and something good definitely. woot! hopefully all falls well. maybe this is a time to prove to su min that im really committed? i dunno. i know im committed just that i made a mistake in not going before service start on sunday mornings for set up. well, it is my fault and only myself to blame. guess i gotta buck up and improvise from this. wee...

didnt feel sad at all when i found out i was demoted. but it was in cell group it was getting into my head. everytime wanna focus on the message the thought came back again. "kelvin im demoting u again". im like get outta my head!!! but then if things dont go right with God, how can other things go well? gotta get myself right with Him then im sure all else will fall in place. yeah. i can do it!!!

so many pics!!!

Edited.

Give me wisdom, plain and truthful |
Teach me somethin I don't know |
Plain as education, inspiration I suppose |
Give me family, on a Sunday |
And I'll be just fine |
There's nothing in the world |
That's worth more of my time |


im not a poet instead i took that from a song. find that its meaningful. something to think bout at 3.27am. ^^
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Originally.



the grass was greener and sprawling all over...



and the white clouds was surrounding the twin tower as if rain never existed...



okay la there wasnt a pic with white clouds over the towers but this was the best "Google" could offer me. (^-.-^)

then when i look back straight again heading out of the condo, i nearly fell. 4hrs of sleep made me super dizzy this morning. shouldve slept when i intended. argh. was even playing with the thought of skipping service with "sick" excuses" and deal with them later but decided to skip since i needed to go through my "counselling" sessions asap and thankfully, I DID!!! with several interruptions in between and limited time. geez...havent ppl heard of knocking and understanding behind the glass door? *whistles away*

anyway service today was once again spectacular. maybe more to amazing or perfect - tho nothing in this world is perfect but Jesus. wee wang wang...i find it amazing everytime the songs they sing in worship fits my situation. it was like the baskin robbins ice cream ive been craving for a year finally in my mouth.


and the sermon was beryl's dark chocolate which i could finally eat after 2 years. God...everything was perfect today!!

-so many pics, so many tempting food. im so so hungry now >.<-

so perfect that i finally did manage to see the bigger picture in life now. not to say ive seen everything but seen enough to know how wrong ive been, how far ive strayed and how much im slacking. and it took me 11 months 18 days 10hours an few mins to realise this years statement - a year of positioning. being late is better than never tho. think i still have enough time to bounce back up and set myself right again.

i got my ass kicked today. truth never sounds nice no matter how much ur prepared to listen to it. somehow it still aches u inside. but its how long ur gonna allow to hurt u instead of facing it like a man and overcome it.

i thought about how ive been acting lately. not giving the right attitude in cell group. sometimes cocky i think. that dark ego surfacing sometimes. then ive been on - off in bible reading. especially when im hooked to so much gaming or online that i neglect everything else - studies, God, friends. EVERYTHING!! been cursing a bit recently. not proud to admit it but its something im gonna need to let go for real. cant think of anymore for now...all i know is i gotta move on. wee~ come to think of it, im quite happy now. its like first time im really feeling singlehood. no nothing at all to worry but myself. haha. i kinda like this feeling. (^^)v peace!~

p.s : singlehood rocks!!! so much fe-wee-dom!!!

when it all falls apart

another post here couldnt have come in at a better time. i mean things was going so well and so many good, funny and memorable things were happening until 4hrs ago. its like u tried so hard to climb up mount kinabalu and when ur 10 steps from the top u fall down. or when u ran to qualify for the 100m dash u couldnt pass the 12sec mark altho uve been training so hard. i find the simplest things in life can destroy the big ones. its good its bad i dont know. right now 1 thing im sure of, im frustrated. well thats wad bro told me i was in short. i dont know to be honest. wad i know now is i wanna cry. i wanna drink and get drunk and forget so hard bout it like it never happens. i wanna travel away once again to find another sanctuary. i ran when aunt passed. i ran when me n sharon lost it. why not run now when the person i loved so much that i cant describe beyond words tells me shes in love with another guy? run to aus and find mel. or jus run to uk and find some hot brit chick. who knows? i saw this scenario happened in the drama series "Ed". happened in "Friends" too and a whole bunch of sitcoms/dramas but never i thought it would happened to me. and yet all this while i was telling everyone im prepared for it. that its not gonna affect me at all. right now, i cant. i just cant take it. i dont know wad to do. im losing my head and my mind now. the grand finale is, its a SATURDAY NIGHT. for God's sake cant bad things happen on other days but JUST NOT SATURDAYS??!! theres church in the morning so i need to put on my best facial expression and ive to be super upbeat bout it since going to His house is a goodie happy thing. fyi, i cant. my emotions always outwit me so no. i cant do it. i dont know how but i cant. i dont even know why im blogging now. i jus need someone to talk to. doreens busy with alex. mel's in kk. sharon's in kedah. even panda is in sarawak now. this is fucking great!!

KK?

wee wang wang wee wang wang...

been running figures through my head all night long thinking bout this months expenses with a very small budget made available and seems like its gonna be a hard november ahead. for the next 3 weeks thats it. good thing is i paid my tithes this morning so no complaints or excuses for not paying tithes. remembered raymond shared with me before - once get allowance, 1st thing is to pay tithes. then only worry about your bills and meals. guess this time is for me to experience it and now praying a miracle to happen. malachi 3:10 says it all already so now is jus my turn to believe and have faith like in hebrews 11:1. woo woo 2 scriptures so far. haha

this morning felt challenged to raise my pledge AGAIN. thinking deep now how much i can raise. ive already made a 50% increase from my original amount but now felt like i should increase another 50%. hmmm....i really wonder now what amount i should give. maybe this pledge is really a testing ground for me, to see if i can give to the house of God. i gotta admit sometimes i gave out of abundance or appropriately - as in still enuff to lsat for the day or week and still give an amount which satisfies my heart. maybe its time i REALLY REALLY give out of poverty. gotta say no to this and that. this brings my attention to the n93. shud i still aim for it and then only save for pledge? or shud i cancel it and focus all my money on the pledge. hmm...there is both pro and con so im still thinking

if i get the phone
- can sell my current(v3x) for bout 800-1000
- more than enuff money to pledge and can give even more with cny round the corner in feb
- ill only have to tighten my belt for nov a bit of dec maybe

wait, i dont even have to go to the part if i dont get the phone. it has already outweigh the other. haha. so im still on with the phone!!! and gonna believe for a breakthrough this time in terms of monetary. yea yea!!

suprisingly saw alex today (doreen's bf from pg) who came down to visit doreen in hopes to suprise her. didnt expect him till next weekend but oh well, cant stop 2 love birds from seeing each other right? this got me down a bit. since im single and hormones are raging. haha. i jus realise 1 thing. i met her in KK and our 1st initials of our names combined together is also KK. yikes. and if we both like kareena kapoor (KK ALSO, the blollywood actress), it'll be 3/3. weird...but funny weird that kind...haha!!!

birthdays and more

this month theres loads of birthdays in my list i found out. just to name a few, there was ppl like desiree, aderyn, myself, dad, jeffrey, sonia, sin and etc. if i were to buy each of them a gift i think i'll eat up 2 months allowance or somewhere there. yikes. hoping this month would pass really really fast and when u know it, its christmas cuz thats when i get few days off from college. plus the fact im getting ma goodies from justin. yippee!

to be honest i dunno what i should blog now. what ever that's in me i've poured it out to respective people and im quite empty now. i've talked to justin bout family issues, doreen on cell group and God issues and erin on relationship issues. even studies also sorted ady. wads left to talk or stress about but waiting for things to take place? guess that explains why im being a potato couch lately - minus the belly and bizarre eating behavious that is. maybe a lil shopping tomorrow or next week would cheer me up. shopping IS a therapy after all. but then i dunno what i should buy. hmmm...a bright smiley shirt would be nice. or some crazy looking pants that would really attract attention. or maybe a bling bling and wear it to college. yea that'll be cool!!

a huge happy birthday greeting to eunice lim and see mei. both of W23 ( raymonds cell ). for see mei, pls dont hit me so hard everytime u see me and for eunice, pls dont nose bleed everytime we go batu feringghi(how 2 spell?) buy dvd. hahahaha
word of the day : repositioning

i find that i need to redirect my life back into a proper road instead of a muddy narrow one. i gotta get my butt off the bed and start going to classes even if i sleep at 3am and class starts at 8am. i need to start putting God first and foremost in everything i do. i need to set my standards and goals right and have a good self discipline with all the freedom i have. I NEED TO IMPROVE MY LIFE!!!

kinda feel a stressed now with the fact that this sem is a "do-or-die" sem where everything must be brilliant or suffer the consequences of severe failure nd future wrecking. talked to dad the other day and actually he does have a point. since this semester is so crucial to me, why then must i have an internet line? why not cancel it and focus the 3 months into studying. well practically i cant do that since w/o a line im in eternal boredom and going to cyber cafes will only help kill my money faster. so i guess im gonna take a chance in self discipline myself. less the gaming, more the sleep, butt in college. if i cant kick in the studying or healthier lifestyle by end of the month then severe actions shall be taken.

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in my previous post i posted some pics of my bday and 1 of them was me and my mum. some ppl told me my mum was pretty ( considering the fact shes actually 50 and she looks 40? in that pic ). it wasnt the 1st time someone told me that since charlaine started telling me back in form 2 if not mistaken and many ppl soon followed after that. the other day i wrote "why everyone say my mum pretty?" on my msn and i got a reply which got me freaking pissed off. it was from po hin. i know his intentions was right and was jus being a lil cheeky maybe but it was the way he asked to see my mums photo that got me really mad. its like the way he asked as if my mum was that "cheap". totally did not reply him and told him straight off today before cg when he asked me again. i think the prob here is the blunt english ppl have when asking for something. the way chinese ed ppl ask or say things in english can be misintepreted that it can vary in meaning. somehow, he got on my nerve that day.

now chau was another bastard who spoiled my mood. who can be childish enuff to say "fcuk u ler" in ur msn and went offline after that w/o explaining why or give a heads up. sudahlah he very immature tho he's 19 and ive known him for few years, yet he did something i find totally not funny. i guess some ppl just never grow up right? saying foolish things at this age and thinking its funny. pift...

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okay enuff pissing, lets talk happy things~

doreen's back in kl and happy to see her again. had a good longggg talk with her jus now and as i expected, she did hook up with alex. sigh, so now leaves me as the single one in the circle. haha. being single is okay also since im JUST 19. i dont wanna be like wei siang now (college mate). always 1 hand on the phone sms-ing the gf and need to reload every week. always in debt heavily and studies tak semacam only. now need find part-time to pay debt and get more spending money. i dont wanna end up like that at all. its like if at this young age already in debt so much, what more when ur older? thousands of ringgit from ah long? eeekk!!!! >.< . like erin said, im 19, still young with plenty of time. plus theres plenty of hot chicks in the "market" altho i already fix myself on a particular "hot-fish". ^^v

the day after yesterday

ok im 19 now. hmmm that doesnt sound right at all!!! theres sweet 16, alcoholic 18 and voting 21 but theres nothing for 19. no wonder this year so bored la me. practically slept half the day while the remainder went to staring at the wall and eating cakes. doesnt sound fun at all right? worst part was 1st moment see mum terus WW3 start ady. unfortunaly tiny lil iceland (me) lost to U.S (mum). highlights of this year was i had 3 cakes!!! not really a lot to some ppl but its still too much for me. 1 was strawberry yoghurt, 1 was cuppocino cheesecake and the other was strawberry ice cream. kewl...I think the best was the strawberry yoghurt. very sweet and had the original strawberry fruit, not those from the canned ones. all the more its from seccret recipe. woop-pee-dee. heres some pics my cousin snapped for me...ive removed all the funny looking ones of my face to avoid embarrasment ^^



thats iceland and U.S after peace talks - its all a metaphore of phrase please...



thats me and my aunt - the one i dont really fancy after she accused me of lying



thats me and ma cake. its 2 combined together actually if u see properly ^^

outing cancelled!!!!

cool, this is my 55th post for this new blog of mine. think its been 2 years or more since i started to blog and comparing to my xanga, i think i did pretty well myself with this one. yeah thumbs up for myself.

and time is ticking away slowly till D-day. its like 19hrs and __ mins away by the time im done here. and the weirdest or awkward thing is that some ppl actually fast forward the day. means today is sunday instead of saturday and greetings were sent. okui is the 1st this year and jason was 2nd. this monkey and tortoise fast by 1 day ady. haha. appreciate it tho from them. made me laugh jus now while dota-ing.

plans for this sunday was completely messed up. thanks to the most powerful woman in my life - my mother. cant see a movie with erin and kher lit cuz gotta head over for dinner at 6++ i think so cant make it in time. prob was that mum didnt even negotiate with me. terus say "u dont make plans ah. i purposely come for u, u better come with me..." argh. i refuse to fight back this time. well, i suppose only good things can happen when ur shopping with ur parents right? haha. lets REALLY hope so good things do come true since im not paying a single cent ^^.

been thinking of wad i want and wad im getting so far and the list seems good so far. haha. expecting a n93 from bro in the coming weeks. a brand spanking new manchester united jersey end of dec or jan prolly. mashimaro from panda. wonder wad else is in store ? *cheeky grin with a malicious face* hahaha

but then its sad when u cant have the things u really want in life. this year i want a something starting with D. can be a donkey, drum set or a dress i tell u. altho i dunno how a dress and kelvin can mix in the same page. @@ (ewww....gross). a D, all i really want is a D. looks like only me and the big man up there knows wad it is ;)

the other was talking to someone and this kept getting into my head.

LEAVE THE EMOTION OUT OF THE EQUATION

i mean how can i do that? if im able then im not human right? literally speaking. i know im a person full of emotions and i easily swing 1 side. plus ive got pms ( mens version w/o the blood part u know? go read a readers digest will ya? )

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its official. my cursing days are back with signs showing major vocab change past few days. it'll only be a matter of days before full implementation of the beautiful usage of vlgar words. this is not good. nearly blew off jus now playing dota again. i find myself 2 diff person. a nice once when not playing and a meanie cursing person when gaming. especially dota. dont know why but thinking back, the 2 months i stopped playing everything in life turned out great. well, except that small part. but now things are going up and down like a sin graph. sorry if u dunno what im yapping about. the graphs goes up and down continously like my fortune now. sekejap baik, sekejap tak baik. sigh.

need go beaty therapy session soon starting with a session on my face. ack of sleep past 2 weeks has caused pimples to pop everywhere and im very easy to get tired now. lack sleep, water and proper meals now jus like when exam. and all this happening in nov. this is suppose to be like the best month for me.

feel like doing an analysis now. see who remembers my bday and who doesnt. dont expect gifts tho but hoping how long can my phone keep ringing. i know last year was crazy but this year? somehow doubt it.