Here's a quick update on how things have been of late:

1) RMIT extended deadline for 2 weeks while pending exemptions applications results. Good news definitely since it's still my 1st choice of University

2) Submitting Swinburne's application form by this week or monday next week so should be expecting results within 3 weeks tops

3) Advance Diploma officially started today and i'm still in KK. UTAR also began its semester 1 week earlier so this means my study options have been narrowed down to Monash KL or australia and more recently, United Kingdom. Apparently dad is suggesting to complete my studies in 2 years time and start working.

4) Less than 4 weeks to go till the execution of 19suprises and i'm only on no.3. I'm so dead when she's back. And bro, i'm still a chicken in this whole craze. Well only my bro and ana would understand what item no.4 is all about. It's like what ana said, highlight of the year, one of the top top top agenda's. Lol.

5) Results via Pass/Fail is out in 7hrs time (that's 10am on a wednesday morning) and i'm not feeling nervous right now nor tensed. Felt a little earlier but quite calm now. Listening to pop rock songs got me all hyped up now.

You make me wanna lala in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a French maid where I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

I feel safe with you
I can be myself tonight
It's alright with you
'Cause you hold my secrets tight
You do,you do
You make me wanna lala lalala lalala lalalalala lalala
You make me wanna lala lalala

PART 2

When i finally got some pictures into this computer i realised it does not have picture editor programs so once again, it's gonna be a word filled entry tonight. =(

Things around me are beginning to get complicated i realise. For starters, thomson has a problem in female since he only goes after girls with the name sarah and most recently, a 17yr old one whose quite hot with a very strict family(he's ex is sarah and the girl before is also sarah). Tough luck mate + girls named sarah addiction problem. Then there's james whose contemplating on breaking up with his 16yr old sweetie since he's going to university in the coming months (thank God he's finally shifting out of sabah). The bloke don't believe in long distance relationships so oh well. Evan is another poor fella. Still stuck in sabah for the past 1yr since A-Levels finished and still unsure where to go to further his studies. Mind you the guy scored straight A's in 4 subjects (he's from science stream). Really pity him. Hope he really pass the interviews and head to cambridge or somewhere that fits his intellectual. Then finally there's ana who is having issues in workplace with the doctor and that "jerk" (in mel's own words to label that guy). By far she's the one that give's me the biggest headache of those who still remains here in lonely kota kinabalu.

Well, life won't be fun if i don't have any problems right? like the saying goes, "if you can't beat 'em, JOIN 'EM!". Still haven't filled my Swinburne application forms yet and I'm suppose to submit it by next week. Tempted to switch places tho from RMIT to Swinburne since they start end of july and have cheaper fees compared. Down part is I'm 30mins tops adrift of mel. Not really a problem tho considering to go to sunway from setapak consumes 1hr 30mins to 2hrs tops which i have to go through each weekend. Yay!! Right now just hoping and still praying, that i'm gonna get exemptions from either Uni's and get the full green light to go overseas. After all, TAR's advance diploma program starts monday and it's saturday now. I HAVEN'T EVEN PACKED!!!! So i'm on the brink of thinking that somehow rather, i gotta go overseas since only Monash in KL offers my course.

P.S : For those of you who knows who mel is and is beginning to wonder why i choose australia or melbourne to be more specific, it's NOT because of her and i repeat, NOT because of her.

But to be honest, I'm done with KL already. Tired of the place, filled with bittersweet memories (more sweet ones definitely). To meet people like erin, angeline, "shorty", boon wee and of course, the most controversial one, "princess". Can't really tell why it's controversial tho since somethings are better left untold except to a few trusted ones and extremely close to me. More importantly, there's no decent place to exercise in KL!!! can't access to a place to jog or play tennis while gym's are expensive and far.

Okay, better stop complaining before i begin to annoy some locals or those who are staying there. Signing off for now and until we meet again in my next entry, sayonara and toodles!!

PART 1

I understand if the blog is a little short of colorful bright sunny pictures filled with people's face and smiles. Promise to upload more pictures in the coming post.

Being Inspired : SAY NO TO NO

Isn't it high time someone got negative about negative things?
Yes it is
Look around. The world is full of things that, according to non-sayers, should have never happened.
"Impossible"
"Impractical"
"No"
An yet "yes"
Yes, continents have been found
Yes, men have played gold on the moon
Yes, straw is being turned into biofuel to power cars
Yes, yes, yes.
What does it take to turn no into yes?
Curiosity. An open mind. A willingness to take risks.
And, when the problem seems most insoluble, when the challenge is hardest, when everyone else is shaking their heads, to say: let's go

Recently i bought a copy of times magazine to cure my boredom and it proved its worth during its long period of reading it has provided me with (believe me, till now mum and dad is still shocked i bought one). In one of the pages (advert to be exact) is where i got the paragraph above. It inspired me a lot in that particular week when things were beginning to get rougher for me and kinda helped me through it. So when each time you feel like you cant push thru, think twice and keep fighting on. It's worth it! =)

There are days when you wake up in the morning and you feel great. Feel that the world is in your grasp. Feel that today is the day where big things is gonna happen. Big decisions being made and big events that will happen and somehow change your life in some ways.

Sure you can only agree with me in this right?

But then, there are also days where you wake up and feel the weight of the world on you. Feeling that you can't make it out of the four walls of your house without anything going wrong prior to it. Feeling that it would've been better if you stayed home, tucked warmly underneath the blanket and take a long, much needed sleep which you've craved for since 3months ago. In short, feels as if today is gonna be the worst day of your life and your 6th sense just tingled in the nick of time to give you a 5mins heads up.

Well, that's just how DAYS go for some people. That's why people can come up with lines like "the good, the bad and the ugly".

For me, I had the latter of the days i described. Unfortunately but its reality. I tend to think bad luck or bad incidents happen because you first did it to someone so karma returns it back to you in a time and event only time will tell. For example, if someone keeps sms you and you feel annoyed in replying you end up replying short and straight to the point, wouldn't that person feel hurt? You wouldn't care pretty much right? after all, its not YOUR feelings to start with. But when karma strikes back at you, well, you know what I'm gonna say anyway. Still...

Life goes on many of us.

The rain poured heavy this morning (afternoon to be exact) as i woke up from my deep slumber. The kind that really wakes you up, gets you all cozy and gives you the feeling to just lie down on bed and enjoy the rain and not sleep. Really. It was about 1pm when i realized the time. Somehow deep down, I could feel a voice crying to me saying "Kelvin, you gotta prepare yourself for today cuz the sun ain't shining on you".

Literally, it happened. The sun didn't shine today at all and its been either pouring or cloudy all the way till evening. All the more, the sun sets at about 6.30p.m here in KK unlike 7.30pm in KL. It was really a dark, dark day for me.

If you're pretty bored by now reading my ramblings so far then allow me to enlighten your misery by going straight to the main point. It's my application for University which has got me depressed all morning. But then i have been partially down since last night after hearing "eggs" story bout her colleague. Still feel like punching his face till this very minute though.

P.S : Me, fiona and mel have come up with nicknames for ourselves after the standard healthy american breakfast.

Me = Ham Mel = Bacon Fiona = Eggs
An addition to the family, Cheryl = Mashed potatoes (the cheryl in canada =) )

Well, RMIT did offer me a place no doubt. A conditional one that is considering i applied when i was still going through my diploma and all i was required to fulfill is to complete my diploma and bring them my full transcript with a letter certifying I'm done with this course. Sounds all easy peachy and good to go right?

Yeah that's what i thought too in the beginning

Then when i talked to the counselor bout getting exemptions, he said i was short of 0.2 in my CGPA. Once again, 0.2. That 2 numbers is still floating around my head right now. So right now, I'm quite uncertain what to do now. I can't go back K.L anymore. Despite how much I've learn from there and the many joyful people that has brighten my dull life so far, the pain it bears is still to much for me to face once more.

Call me a coward, call me a sissy or what ever you want. I can't find the sufficient courage to go and face my "demons" once more. No, I don't mean REAL demonic, evil people. Just a big word to represent everything. Mum ain't giving me any certainties for once. I don't dare to talk to dad yet. Justin is missing in action smoking pot somewhere i guess. Eggs busy working and bacon's done what she can do. Even sis said to go for the positive and fight for it if i really want it.

Guess that's the only thing i can do now. Fight for it in real and pray hard God makes it possible through all this clouds on top of me. All the more, i heard a small voice telling me God will make a way through all this. Is this God's sign i shouldn't worry so much? That i should do the utmost of what man alone can do and leave God the rest - the impossibles. =)

Sorry the details is still a little blurry in many parts. Can't really put things into words right now. Heads stuck and it's pretty amazing already i can still find the urge and passion to blog right now. All i know is, despite all this, i gotta push through. Its what makes individuals stronger if i remembered correctly from somewhere.

P.S : Whatever the outcome maybe, I will not and mean WILL NOT, go back to TAR college or UTAR. It's not an option to me. I'm going distances cause I'm capable of dreaming big!!

Sabahans are getting richer of late. Cars like Nissan 350z and Mazda rx-7/8 are popping up suddenly like mushroom after the rain this year. However since K.L is filled with this cars so it didnt bother me much. What bothered me was this car. A SLK 200 worth several hundred thousand if i'm not wrong. It's 10times better and cooler looking than a C200 Kompressor Mercs and well, faster by a mile. To see this car in KK is quite a sight to me. All the more the driver is quite young from his appreance.

Ice Skating. 2 years in K.L plus going to sunway each weekend and I never went ice skating. Sigh...

As eric said in his msn,

Munday Tiusday Wetnesday Thurstday Fryday Sadurday Sonday - lol..

7 long days passing by and i'm bored to death. I can feel the mass in me decreasing, the phosphorus in my bones demolecullarized, my eye ball shrinking and my brain hallucinating. Ok i'm crapping here again. Since i'm so free at the moment due to the down time in my online game, I might as well do some blogging - with proper english for once without any abbreviations and la or kan's. So if you find one here do nudge me and claim Rm5 from me. *Muaks*. But you can exclude the "lol" earlier on. It's well intended. =)

So life goes on for everybody ever since college ended. College friends taking a break in their respective homes. Church friends still actively serving God, still on fire I hope. Me on the other hand is waiting patiently plus anxiously for my offer letter to arrive. I meant to say conditional offer letter to arrive. It's been a week already since the online approval and while my friends have received theirs, mine is still no where in sight.

P.S : The post office system in Malaysia is not that efficient also lately...

On a happier note, had a haircut yesterday!! Yay!! Kinda short though according to kher lit. She say it's not ugly but trying hard not to go there yet complains it's too short. Thought of trying something different for once but get this kinda critic. Hmm, short hair kel seem's to be a no-no from now onwards. Here's a look on it tho and you'll be the judge.

Mother's Day is approaching very soon!! It's this sunday according to my brother but webbie says its May 15. So to be honest, I'm kinda lost now. All the more lost in what to buy considering I have a mother who is into fashion and has a wishlist of things where her son who is not working is not able to afford for any of those items including the cheapest one. *Sobs*. Guess a bouque of flowers will do plus a simple card. It's the thought that counts right? Hehe...

Initially I had this long list of things to blog such as school bully issues, karma, farewells, and friends just to name a few but think today i'll vent my disappointment in the area of promises. I remember I used to tell someone "a promise made is not meant to be broken". I remember saying that when I could still hold my head up high because no matter bad or lousy I did things, I could still carry it out. And despite believing in the idiom "buat baik dibalas baik", somehow things just don't seem to happen in this aspect. All the more when someone breaks it, it only aches yourself. Sucks, but that's life and i'm openly whining.

P.S: Kher lit, where's my chicken soup?!?!?!