so so long...

its 1.40am now. man im tired. but still love chatting in the wee hours of the day with friends or just chill around. definitely not the time to play game. will get sleepy asap. seeing tv's an option but thats later. spain vs france man. a blockbuster definitely. haha. not feeling well now actually so i should be in bed but hey, since when kelvin does things BY THE RULES? cant remember the last time. so many things have happened lately. feel so bugged bout it. anyway heres a short short recap of past events:

- fight bout the streamyx line with mum
- terence is back home finally. God i miss him
- mel's bday which i owe my bro big time for buying the gift and delivering
- rejected by CG leader into ministry
- aussies are out but portugal is thru!!!
- realise i have many things i didnt do

cant think of anymore for now. haha. life sucks lately u know. sigh.
*P.S : Goo Goo Dolls new album rocks!!!
sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh and so much more sigh. ARGH!!! God help me!!!!!

bloggie day!!~

haha....i somehow enjoy seeing myself SS there. its been awhile i do that. more to come i promise. once i get a new haircut tomorrow or someday soon and remove my NEW BLOODY ZIT im so gonna snap loads more pics. hu hu. anyway today is 1st day going out publicly with ma new phone and seems like im getting loadsa attention ah. haha. especially from shorty who keep bising me wan it. lol. jus hope dont attract too much attention till someone wanna steal it again. gonna be very very sad and damn angry this.

so happy that finally im involved in the church ady. in a ministry i mean. feels good tho. sadly got something bugging in the mid. now po hin say need eunice's permission wor. sigh. jus hope its granted la so i can serve there. imagine me at the bookstore counter doing the promotion and stuffs. cool!!! haha. but im jus praying all will go well so i can serve now. lalala~~

dedicating this to sonia

took this pic last weekend in medan after church. thats jun tao, harryz ho ho ho, kriz fu, so poh jamie below and good looking me!! haha







hmm..sonia sonia sonia. well to be frank i dun really know much bout her cuz i'm still a lil "fresh" maybe in knowing her. but so far i find her very nice as in the soft toned girl next door, quite a talker, friendly, pretty and hot!!! a lil short she says but she's just fine. hoho. the more i say the more kembang later she become this. and yes sonia I DO MISS YOU!!! haha. ok confirm she kembang ady this. enough sonia for 1 year. back to kelvin and more kelvin. LOL!!!

actually theres nothing much to write now. got la but not in the mood yet. tummy grumbling bah ok? need go makan 1st. ish. tomorrow la i blog in abit. or a few days later who knows?

===Teddy Geiger - For You I Will ( Confidence )===

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

===Delta Goodrem - Lost Without You===

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
if we ever say we'd never be together
in the end you wave goodbye
dunno what I'd do
im lost without you


I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

its like 3.16 am in the morning now and my head is stuck with this 2 songs. basically the chorus part only. sad la. anyway kherlit is in kk now for the 1st day and i must admit im missing her heaps. super heaps. sadly ive got no phone now so cant "kacau" her in anyway at all. but good also la. she can fully concentrate in spending time with her friends. sonia's in kk too in boredom and in quest to obtain abs. damn lame la son!!! i cant believe i agreed to let u try it. haha!!

its day 2 of me without my phone now. feels kinda okay to be honest. jus that kinda bugs that i've got no alarm to wake up. when go CG cant communicate properly with ppl. im like almost no contact with the outside world now. thankfully i still got msn. thank God for internet!! well, sim card is on its way now thru courier service. monday i expect to get it. in da meantime, a new phone seems to be the biggest problem now. i've got a feeling that mum is gonna limit my budget to a number not i hoped for. but im crossing all my fingers for it to reach 1k range. that way a v3x wont be too far from my sight. haha!!! still, the most important thing to me now is jus getting a new phone ASAP. nothing more nothing less.

bouncing back

its tough when failure knocks on ur door and strikes you. bt it suck even more when u tried to deny it and overcome it, it still gets the better of you. 4 months. took me that long to learn it. still kinda in the process now tho. yes, i am still sad i failed but i realise what mum said was true. no use crying over spilled milk. jus that it struck me so unexpectedly and i wasnt prepared at all to face it. i cant complain much tho. just 1 is better than 3 as justin said. so i gotta be thankful in a sense. so now hopefully i can bounce back and move on. continue working harder again this sem in 2nd year. new year new sem new ambitions new me. all new.

kinda looking thru uni's yesterday and find loads of them are expensive. not to mention monash malaysia is also exp but half the oost at least comparing melbourne. i am now seriously thinking of going melb. since mel is there and theres a good beach there. alvin and cynthia around also in perth and adelaide. so im gonna give in a big big and very deep consideration. hehe. altho in uk ive got 2 bro's there and football to attract me. haha. see how la. got another 3 months to think thru it.

sem started this week and things are kinda tough ady. i like it honestly. new challenge and new things to learn. sad case is timetable wrecking it. its either packed or empty. so so unfair. haha but im trying hard not to complain [ telling a big white lie here ]. hopefully will improve myself this sem altho my only worry now is visual basic and C++ programming. i so so dun like that sub. suck at it. haha. oh ya, ths time got learn things related to chem. so happy!!! my all time fav subject. altho paper is kinda tough but im aiming for A. woo woo. excited at this prospect ady. haha.

starting to get sick of dota la. noobs in bs3 increasing and all the pro play other games ady. rarely lose now. that also we under par performance. haha. but then ive got till august now to prove my point. better start intensive training regime ady but must not lack studies. haha. so LOL man. i dig the new avatar. use 4 - 5 times so far and im already owning till holy cow dunk. LOLX. haha. well, jus train la to impress the "nuker" according to lawrence. haha.

sleep time anyway. its like 5am now? O_O haha. neighbours alarm clock ring ady and i still awake. wad kinda human being am i? and today blog so much de? tular kelvin ong. so long no blog now too many rubbish out from the head. lol