bouncing back

its tough when failure knocks on ur door and strikes you. bt it suck even more when u tried to deny it and overcome it, it still gets the better of you. 4 months. took me that long to learn it. still kinda in the process now tho. yes, i am still sad i failed but i realise what mum said was true. no use crying over spilled milk. jus that it struck me so unexpectedly and i wasnt prepared at all to face it. i cant complain much tho. just 1 is better than 3 as justin said. so i gotta be thankful in a sense. so now hopefully i can bounce back and move on. continue working harder again this sem in 2nd year. new year new sem new ambitions new me. all new.

kinda looking thru uni's yesterday and find loads of them are expensive. not to mention monash malaysia is also exp but half the oost at least comparing melbourne. i am now seriously thinking of going melb. since mel is there and theres a good beach there. alvin and cynthia around also in perth and adelaide. so im gonna give in a big big and very deep consideration. hehe. altho in uk ive got 2 bro's there and football to attract me. haha. see how la. got another 3 months to think thru it.

sem started this week and things are kinda tough ady. i like it honestly. new challenge and new things to learn. sad case is timetable wrecking it. its either packed or empty. so so unfair. haha but im trying hard not to complain [ telling a big white lie here ]. hopefully will improve myself this sem altho my only worry now is visual basic and C++ programming. i so so dun like that sub. suck at it. haha. oh ya, ths time got learn things related to chem. so happy!!! my all time fav subject. altho paper is kinda tough but im aiming for A. woo woo. excited at this prospect ady. haha.

starting to get sick of dota la. noobs in bs3 increasing and all the pro play other games ady. rarely lose now. that also we under par performance. haha. but then ive got till august now to prove my point. better start intensive training regime ady but must not lack studies. haha. so LOL man. i dig the new avatar. use 4 - 5 times so far and im already owning till holy cow dunk. LOLX. haha. well, jus train la to impress the "nuker" according to lawrence. haha.

sleep time anyway. its like 5am now? O_O haha. neighbours alarm clock ring ady and i still awake. wad kinda human being am i? and today blog so much de? tular kelvin ong. so long no blog now too many rubbish out from the head. lol