alcohol, a bed, physical contact and doctors...

its thursday and im bored. today havent go out yet or seen anyone. this excludes the guys at my hse this earlyyy morning and anthony stayed a lil longer till 6.30. man was he tired or wad. all of us couldnt wake him up at all. anyhow woke up late today and thankfully didnt kena marah. dad's not at home meaning i have all the cars to drive at my will. muahahaha. speaking of cars, today finally banged someone. not really bang. a bump is more precise. a teensy weensy bump w/o scratches at all. God i got so scared i wrecked mums car so soon. thankfully the worst was not at sight so i managed to get my arse out from the fire this time.

for those who asked me bout my msn nick, im very sorry i didnt reply cuz i chose not to apparently and that it wouldnt be good. nothing happened at all actually and it was jus a statement i put up. not too seek attention but jus being playful. and u know wad? i actually gave it a thought. i have to be honest. i am not a good person or maybe i am. im just supressing all my bad inside me. i didnt give it back to God but i kept it in me. why so? i dont know. maybe im a person of the world. very into wads in the culture and society. living the riches and thru the fame. surrounded by ppl adoring you or by beautiful women. wad more? if life was like a movie im gonna have a hard time picking which movie. i find the best things in this world is when u have a combination of money, cars, women, power and dreams. dreams to visualize urself there and the will to do wadeva it takes to get there and it aint gonna be pretty. but coming down to earth. i guess i finally realise wad i want, wad im capable of and wad kills me. i want a companion. someone who understands me is all i ask for. well with long hair la and yes, im talking bout female for goodness sake. i want a women, the complete package. not some 18 year old girl who wants to be happy and pampered 24/7. someone who makes me laugh, cries with me, works with me and clicks with me. knows wad i want and when i want it. of course i can and am capable of doing that in return. trust me on that. well, i guess being 19 is too soon to find one like that. ppl keep telling me why settle for 2nd best? or why shouldnt i go out and find 1 hot model material girl and get her. now that would be the apple of everyones eyes. ive got time, maybe? but i certainly dont have the patience. wadeva it is, i saw screw it. if really there was someone i could get no matter who it was. it has to be lilo. not the lilo and stitch that lil lilo girl. a certain lilo of mine that i know. shes 8.5/10 of my requirements and shes still single. aint that a bonus? but fu*k it. im lost in myself now.

really freaking bored now. i wanna go to the beach with mel or doreen and sit and talk all night. sighz. 1's in melbourne 1's in penang. wad the heck man!!! and all my other ji mui's are missing all over the globe. seriously.